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[Dec. 9th, 2009|06:01 pm] |
LOVES that I'm in love...
it's been a while...
and it never felt this good to begin with.
I have never felt so right in my life... and hopeful..
wonderful things are in store
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[Dec. 6th, 2009|03:04 am] |
had an allergy tonight... damn myself for not reading labels properly!
now I am so drugged out on benadryl that I feel like I am being pulled to the left... ODD?!
I guess I should get some serious sleep tonight though...
it is fucking freezing, btw. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2009|10:53 pm] |
Never wants this ridiculous smile to go away....
I can't believe that this feeling really exists.. or maybe I can't believe that I actually found it
:) |
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[Nov. 30th, 2009|04:11 am] |
this heat most certainly needs to be on higher...
it is 4:07 am right now.. I have to get up for class at 9... we will see how my day goes tomorrow.....
there are some things that keep me up no matter how tired I am .. or how early I have to get up...
it is so interesting how someone can have two completely different sides... terribly interesting, too bad I couldn't have learned this lesson in a class... this is one of those "real lifers" ...
I need a damn short term loan.. I hope they don't give me too much shit about this.. fucking school... don't they want to see people actually achieve ............. SHIT!
I really should get to bed now.. besides, I don't think there is anymore trouble I could get myself into tonight ...... wonderful! |
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[Nov. 17th, 2009|03:23 pm] |
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super happy... super giddy.. giggles and flutters most of the day...
fun is something I could definitely get used to....
in other news.. so glad my first quarter is a couple weeks from completion... didn't do as well as I would have liked.. but fair, all things considered.
:D |
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[Nov. 12th, 2009|11:33 am] |
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For you the number of my misses shall not outnumber the amount of my kisses |
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[Nov. 7th, 2009|05:39 pm] |
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Is it odd that I am starting to believe in astrology? |
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| whoa |
[Nov. 3rd, 2009|05:18 pm] |
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I drew a picture for the first time in like five years today.........
WEIRD? I have never really been a fan of drawing nor have I excelled at it.. but I just wanted to draw today .. perhaps there is a bit of inspiration swirling around inside me
I like it...
now some inspiration to study for my midterms would be in order.......... |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2009|02:04 am] |
I never realized naughty could be so nice!
LOL
This rocks. |
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[Oct. 28th, 2009|08:41 pm] |
this is strange.. I have never sat around and waited for a guy to call me... yuck, how do girls do this? It's like anticipating when a jack in the box is going to pop out.........
GAH. |
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| heavy heart |
[Oct. 6th, 2009|12:08 am] |
things are going good as far as school goes... I think I'm doing good... midterms are soon, then we'll see... I'm proud of myself for getting here, I still am having a hard time grasping it...
I love my little town of Woodland.. its great.. a small town feel while not being too backwoods... my apartment is good too.. empty, but good...
personal life=extremely difficult ...
my heart is so heavy, I wonder if yours is too |
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| change is a comin' |
[Aug. 25th, 2009|01:18 am] |
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Two days later and I still cannot believe I just moved my mom into her own apartment... ?! I guess only lacy would understand how strange this is... I am happy about it, strange though it may be... My house is so quiet now it irritates me ..
the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side
10 days and counting until my big move.... I can't help but feel like I'm abandoning my family.. but I know thats not the case... besides, two new tires and I'll be out here all the time....
ehh... guess I need some rest to finish up this house cleaning and packing .... I wish I could fast forward through that part |
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[Aug. 18th, 2009|12:48 am] |
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I got accepted to my apartment I wanted in Woodland! I'm so thankful for that. We found out that Frank was accepted for his apartment today also... its good news all around. So it is finally happening, we are moving apart for the first time in five or six years... It has been a long time coming, and it is most definitely for the best. I am concerned about adapting to the huge transitions going on in my life though... not only will I be losing someone that I have been with since I was 17, but I will be away from my family that is a huge part of my life... and a new school with a much more demanding schedule ... I don't doubt I can get through it, it will just be a task
I think being apart from frank will be the main adjustment... its a painful situation that is masked by my leaving for school... its so hard because we became adults together, first apartment, first jobs, first cars, we really went through everything together... while in recent months things have been much different and we have been much more independent, doing everything on my own will still take some adjustment...
I think I am actually going to be able to turn in early tonight... wait, is 1 am early? |
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[Aug. 8th, 2009|12:52 am] |
still preparing for the big move... all this preparing has made me realize that I don't own some pretty necessary belongings .. ie, bed... table.. couch... I need to find some deals !
they finished my financial aid at Davis... they come up with this proposed "budget".... I think its not very realistic personally ... but I can't complain about getting paid to go to school
basically I am just sitting around nervous |
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[Jul. 27th, 2009|01:39 am] |
My stress and anxiety level has been through the roof today... I don't think it is a particular event causing said spike in stress.. I just think everything is finally starting to sink in... and all the worrying I do about everyone has distracted me from how worrying my own situation is... I started packing tonight... just over a month until the move... putting together that first box was hard, maybe thats why it felt like a huge weight was resting on my chest all evening...
I'm trying to be excited, but on the inside I fear I may be crumbling
I'm sure I can make it though.
BED TIME... hopefully my sleep will be peaceful |
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[Jul. 19th, 2009|12:53 am] |
Bored, just sitting around waiting for something to happen... well... actually I don't anticipate anything happening at all.. but I figure I will get tired and bored enough to go to bed sooner or later...
on a side note...
Has anyone noticed every store in Modesto is closing?! What the hell is going to be left in the mall ............. ?
I'm hardly ever there.. but damn... today I realized how many stores have closed and it is so ridiculous ... as though I could want to go there less.
gah.. |
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[Jul. 11th, 2009|12:34 am] |
It is so interesting to think about the possibilities that the future may hold... I feel so hopeful that no matter what the future has in store for me, it will be great. Even though things are stressful right now, I couldn't be happier about the way things are turning out... The last couple weeks are really turning me into an optimist! hahah.. crazy. I have to give myself a lot of credit because I found my mom her first apartment in ten years! WOO HOOO.. that is one HUGE thing I do not have to worry about... The "thing" is not my mom, but her having a stable place to live... I have stressed about that for the last ten years and finally I will be able to be away at school and not have that stress... Its a big deal if you knew my family.. hah needless to say its a huge improvement.
I have found my place too... I realized the that when I drove into Sacramento and started bawling that it was not the place for me... Davis is WAY out of my price range .. so I drove around and discovered WOODLAND! YAY WOODLAND! Ten mins from UCD and OUT of the godforsaken city! Not to mention the price is marvelous !!!!
I have a month and a couple weeks until the big move... in the mean time, I need to figure out when I am going to get this entire 3 bedroom house packed into exactly enough boxes to fit into a 1 bedroom apartment.
Then again, most of this stuff isn't mine... In fact... I think I own a coffee table and that's about it
p.s. I will never move in with a boyfriend again. |
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[Jun. 19th, 2009|02:17 am] |
I can't sleep...
does anyone remember those shirts they sold at hot topic that said "can't sleep the clowns will eat me"? why did people wear those?
help.
so I am S T R E S S E D about where the hell I am going to live this fall.. apartments are outrageous and I really didn't want to have to have a roommate .. blah...
I was thinking it would be much much much cheaper to live in Sacramento but I am not familiar with the area at all and I have no idea if I would be moving into the ghetto or something...
see my dilemma?! |
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[Jun. 19th, 2009|12:23 am] |
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I need a drink and a bright neon sign with an arrow pointing me in the right direction. |
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